Have you ever had a moment?

the moment you know :(

So today I was faced with reality. I've raised three boys into men. I've been there for them. But it truly came down to a decision. I've been try to heart with my sons. But I seen the reality. They are not there when mom needed them. So I must now .Face rfacts an be strong. Lord give me strength.

so its like Marcs right...

So I dragged my tired self in to the store right. Long day @ work I believe I was on this sugar rush half the day. I couldn't stop acting like a fool sometimes. It all started at lunch. I ate a hotbot on a gorge foreman grrill. Which if you have space an are looking to save none @lunch time it is an awesome Idea. So anyways I'm off track here . Chris my view the other day made this awesome stuff not sure how, well she did say but my A.D.D kicked in when she said it. It from what I remember it has cream cheese fronting brown sugar and chocolatechips serve it on chocolategraghms its just like an ice cream sandwich. Without the ice. Get it? So anyways my point it I developed the sugar rush of the century. So never had a crash from it so hard then I did today. So I drug my ever so happy tale around March just to buy stuff. Yes. I know your interested. Remember that song here's a quarter call someone who cares...hahara you know.what's funny. That won't work to day. The would be like wait ...what... lord. So here is my moment just letting you share my moment .@ March an my sugar crash. :)

Its Friday!

Its a new day. I looked outside and said. Wow another cloudy day :( but Its trying to sunshine.. Oh here we go. So depressing when it isnt. Ahhh the sun is out its May :) have you ever woke up and felt as if the world is passing you by. I know its crazy right? How she talks in circles :/ well my mind runs around and here I am writing about it as I think it. Like right now I feel I need to better budget my money my time and boy i wish I had a my man to help maintain the household. I feel I have figured it out, I was talking to a friend the other day I beleive im getting empty nest syndrom? What....! or maybe its a midlife Crises...REALLY? Ok so long story short its my 40th this year I dont know how Im feeling about it yet Ill tell you later. So out of this little bit What do you think? Im sure no one is going to answer you gotta have people reading hahahaha but I feel better telling you that I really think I need an R&R from all this thinking stuff :(

Its a food Kinda thing That started with Hunger

We tighten our belts. Save a little dime an a little time. I was brought to the kitchen yesterday after a long day at work. I WAS STARVED! I don’t know about you. But these pockets! Seems to of lost its endless opening. Matter of fact I never had one :/ So last night @ dinner I got creative on my ever so great budget well call limited ALOT. I’m sure most of you have tried this but any ways this was my first time. Yeah me! I succeeded. To top it off I went one step further. I took some beans refried them. Chopped up an 1/2 an onion. Mix it in along with 2 pork chops chopped up in a chopper. Note was stretching the dime. Mix in with the refried beans. Added 1 cup of salsa 1/4 cup of jalapenos chopped for the spice of life.( I like it Hot! ;) mixed well into the Bean mixture to create a thick sauce consistency. Pour over your ever so crispy chips (YUM) garnish with Cheddar Cheese make it as cheesy as you like. Put it in the oven to melt the cheese. Serve warm. Use your fingers, use a fork! serve with sour cream however you like your fabulous tasty moment. Enjoy

The Decade of Greatness

When you look back at the past 10 years how do you see it. Did it play out the way you wanted it to or did its just live your moment. I look back at the past I seen a drama filled life along with good and bad accounts Myself I plan on making 2010 my best year as for the future who knows how that will be but this I promise you I will not sit by and let the time fade. I will be what I was destined to be. The concept at times is overwhelming. But when you have that special effect . the details have no worry....When you keep God in the details the rest seems so small :)

My Mind is at Flow..........

With the wisdom I have gained through out the lifetime of growth. I keep learning. Answer me this one ? Why does it hurt so bad and why does the pain make sure that it reminds you every chance it has in the beginning. As I remember it will ease as time passes. But when it is true it does not pass, It just gives that reminder of your wrongs. So my advise if you don't want to hurt so bad or think of what if.......... you have to choose what you want to win or loose and dont love in vein......I could stand by and watch life pass me by.... but What if ....No I have to hear my sound and find my place of happiness. Don't try to paint my rod its not yours to make of clarity its of choice its my to figure out to find out my sound my happiness. Don't say anything